Wednesday

Well, nearly at Yom Kippur, have I said sorry to anyone? Nope.
Way I feel I should have a free pass after the year I've had.
Sounds selfish but by heck I am feeling that this last few months.
Told my sole Jewish student that whatever happened in my previous life it better be so heinous that it was good for the crap karma, he found this highly amusing. He says he
Aiming for the middle book as he's having problems being that good between now and the holiday!
Especially when I am told folk are jealous of my lifestyle and still they have yet to ask to take it over, oh there's a surprise!
Tomorrow sees me taking mother to get her hair done, it badly needs cut and I decided in my wisdom she has a tint put through. It's not like she knows but, to me it makes the difference, some normality and if she had her marbles then she would have been long ago to get it sorted. I had thought about doing it myself, but chickened out. Bad enough washing and styling her hair but I've drawn the line at cutting and now dying it.
Eldest sister, asked today about if I was going anywhere during my week off work, as she's not keen in moving in and what would she do with Felix. Well considering he lived here for 18 months I think he could come back, but the buses are coming down the street again, so not safe.
Have informed her I might do wee day trips,take mother to her and then go off out on my own, and or meet up with friends.
The way I feel I could do with the week in bed.
It's not tiredness but it's seriously fed up ness.
Watched Who Do You Think You Are tonight, Len Goodman from Strictly was on, and he has his step mother still alive and exactly same age as mother, and yet she's bouncing about and has all her marbles ( how he did say about her) and I sat thinking, why couldn't mother be like that? Just how shitty is dementia, other has an existence, she rarely laughs, when she does, you feel good, and you try, but even watching Mr Bean doesn't make her giggle much any more as she just doesn't " get it".
I had to remind hairdresser that any questions re hair had to come by me not her as she will say aye and no conversation shall happen , but no doubt tomorrow that will be forgotten.
Did think we could do lunch out afterwards, gut now thinking not a good idea.
There is a lot of planning involved for meals out.