Och weel

The sun is shining, not like I can get out and about I hasten to add. Garden like a swimming pool so I couldn't stagger into it and sit, even if it been dry for days, still couldn't as we've steps up and nowt to hang onto. Eldest sister met one of my oldest friends this morning ( I mean how long we've been friends for not that she's old, she's a month younger than me). And she told her what I'd done, and her witty retort was...' she going for a matched set?' I'm glad that it's not same ankle broken, tho a worry is that it was the stronger one of the two....oops Got to say I'm still not missing work. But I am still bored. Friend came and busted me out, piled me into her car and took me out for a few hours. Enjoyed it and had a laugh. Made me also realize how much I miss BFF as if they'd been here I'd have been busted out a wee bit more. Mother has been in crap mode, tried to punch carer ,then behaved perfectly when they came and took her off to da care! We are supposed to be getting assistance with getting her to bed because of my inability but nothing has started,by the time it's set up, I'm better! Sister above me, you know the annoying one, that makes me wish I was a only child? She's also been in fighting mode, we've had lots of screaming matches, her own stupidity making me ubber angry at her. Of course I can't sling my hook and vanish out her orbit, but wish she would just stay away when she's in these moods. I can't do a thing about what she's ranting on about and she doesn't realize her ranting, taking I people against things/ people makes her look like a bully and a great big tit. I blame mother's upbringing for my sister's attitude. I was in retrospect the lucky one and sent to boarding school so my nurturing was kind of different in the long run. Mind you I am also blaming the super moon, the full moon has always affected mother, but this has been worse than normal and sister has jumped on the full moon bandwagon it seems to. So sorry Mr Supermoon, I am blaming you !

Manners marketh a man

Ive prattled on before about the la k of manners in the world for certain generations of people ,one argument was in this day and age of tweeting Facebook and other means of communication, we've forgotten how to communicate.
I know I've not and I'd say 99% of my friends who use such methods haven't forgotten either. But, is it how we are raised that makes us the " man" we are? Do we get manners from parents, from iemds, from the media?
Watching the Levinson Enquiry had me thinking, James Murdoch is a product of his up bringing. His father has very few manners and is a bully and has got his employees doing stuff they probably wouldn't have done but felt they had to, the worse offenders be the ones with ambition and thought any means how to climb, be like him, ruthless etc. I kind f feel sorry for James, he's probably not had e easiest up bringing but he's let his need to get parental approval and hasn't been shown manners and ethical procedures, or am I spinning too much of a human light on them? Probably !
But, because the media seems to show little respect for society, even high up, it reflects on how society then treats each other?
Why should one part of society think that they have a right to do as they wish on another?
Our youth, learn by example, and I do tell the masses I mix with that respect isn't freely given its got to be earned, and manners cost nothing.
Strangely when a youth does say please or thank you or show any manners I usually need to lie down in a darken room.

Bored.com

This breaking your ankle marlarkey is annoying. I'm bored.
I've read a trilogy of books ; if you are wondering the Fifty Shades of Grey.
Don't know if I'd have read them if I'd not seen the hype and had friends reading them and my jury is still out on if I liked or not!
I've now a hard cast on.
This might mean more mobile though it feels weird under the foot.
Feels it will crack.
Back in a month to see if it's knitting together, the pain element is the tendons and I've nerve damage on front of foot.
But Ll in all bar e boredom and inability to do much I feel I'm in a better place than 4 years ao when I fell over with a TIA and did a double fracture on the other one.
Hoping the mindset is for keeps, as it will make me more active and aid recovery, even told consultant off yesterday when she claimed that I might need something more after the stookie came off.... No, want it done and dusted and just physio not more casts....
A Canadian friend asked me this morning why we call it a stookie.... I've no idea, I just went oh it's a Scottish term. So why do we call it a stookie? Someone please.... Lol

I am what I am

I am what I am I am my own special creation So come take a look Give me the hook or the ovation It's my world that I want to have a little pride in My world and it's not a place I have to hide in Life's not worth a damn till you can say Hey world I am what I am I am what I am I don't want praise I don't want pity I bang my own drum Some think it's noise I think it's pretty And so what if I love each feather and each spangle Why not try and see things from a different angle Your life is a sham till you can say Hey world I am what I am I am what I am And what I am needs no excuses I deal my own deck Sometimes the ace Sometimes the deuces It's my life and there's no return and no deposit One life, so it's time to open up your closet Life's not worth a damn till you can say Hey world I am what I am I'm fed up at times being all to others, the words to the above song popped into my head today. Don't know why but it did, and I agree. I'm not conventional, why do I want to be? I've been dealt some rubbish cards in my life, but it's probably what's made me what I am. I don't suffer numpties, and I do have the "Scorpio" sting. Also I do know since the stroke I really do have to work on my filter, as it kind of got destroyed in whatever left part of my mind it took.

Been a while & I need to rant.....

Ever get the feeling I only blog when I want to rant?
Kind of feels that way, but I don't know where to start.
I explained to my friend today that I'd been watching BBC Breakfast and some guy was in raving on about etiquette , and I'd got to the stage I was agreeing and yelling at TV. Funnily enough my friend was agreeing with me, phew says I .
We aren't teaching our youth basic manners it seems and sadly it we agreed it was from the 30something downwards that we thought the rudest, the younger the ruder, you get my drift.
Why did I get a tirade on? Well I'd done a good deed, this altruism doesn't give me happy endorphins so sod knows why I insist on still doing stuff... And what had bugged me was I didn't get a common thankyou. Now I'd gone beyond the call of duty. In fact they'd annoyed me enough prior to the good deed being done, that it nearly didn't happen.
But my conscience wouldn't allow me to pull the plug on a promise.
I may probably regret it, what am I say of course I shall regret it.
I did say to said person, when I offered anoth good deed, and they refused it, that I wouldn't be offering again, as they aren't appreciated.
Wonder if they got the heavy sarcasm? Probably not. Too immature to realize that they are being rude and have no common manners, because they did / do have manners of sorts, they'd pop up every now and again. But was it manners? Was it etiquette ?
What does it mean nowadays?
Do we not say thank you?
Do we not write thank you letters ( ok e mails/ texts) and appreciate what someone might have done for us? Or is that old fashioned?
In the day of the 140 worded tweet, doesnt society under a certain age realize that etiquette isn't that you leave your caps on when tweeting,( it denotes shouting) but common curtisey in the flesh, in the real world?

it won't let me...
blogger won't let me add a gadget of me own!!
I am doing what the site I want to add has said to do!
Och weel....https://pinterest.com/samdescartes/  this is what I wanted to add!
So don't say I didn't try!!
Awaiting  Carer's supervisor to appear, she's late but then traffic round here is hell.
Noticed that they say as from 05.00 on 24/3 will be reversed, this should be fun!

Walkies!!

the wetlands

towards the castle

spring

trees yet to bloom

This was the walk from 20/3/12, spring is springing! Some trees I've seen on my commute to work have turned into pink but others haven't done a thing but its greener at least!

Altruism

I saw in the paper today that altruism is good for you. Seemingly it's not just emotional satisfaction but physical as well.
It's meant to stimulate the production of the feel good chemicals such as brain opioids and oxytocin which play a role in our immune system.
Sorry Harvard never worked for me.
I have been quite altruistic lately for a friend and I've been more ill this winter than in years gone past with the exception of my stroke year!
I'm convinced I don't get happy endorphins even when I exercise or do good deeds. I do for a wee while, then it ceases.

I'm ticked off just now with something said to me today by a friend. Done some pretty good things for them recently and I feel I am being played. Don't know if by them or their roomie. Or aye it's both. Actually did tell them this, and I got told no just being honest etc and respected me etc, and all I could think of what a lot of crock.
Sorry but, where good friends are concerned I am never this cynical and with this friend I've not been till this week.
I'm miffed because I'm fussy with whom I get close to.
I've a small and very select bunch of friends. I like to keep them for life, though I know sometimes life gets in the way but, I've friends from primary 1 still.
I'm a private & quite secretive person, I am a true Scorpio ( still waters run deep and all that) so when I allow someone in I expect loyalty and feel that's not happening just who's, they ae only thinking of themselves and probably don't get why I feel frustrated by events, though they claim they do.
So the article made me go "aye right," or " no way Jose"
Weirdly this is the first time in months I've felt down like this and I am most annoyed by the fact I've let someone pierce the wall of ok ness I'd built. I've had fed up moments etc but today as the dog and I walked in the sunshine I felt despondent I felt I'd taken a giant leap backwards.
Don't like the feeling, I'd hoped as my black moods disappeared that they'd not come back, but that's what I get for thinking I'd it beat.
I'm hoping the dark cloud lifts quickly, but I now feel I must re evaluate my friendship.